Souls entwined by similar minds

“Trees Forest” by Sebastian Unrau/ CC0 1.0

Tag: States of mind

  • Nothingness

    Emptiness
    Hollow chest
    Only excess
    To fill the nothingness

  • Darkness Within

    There’s a darkness within me
    Even when I’m okay, I feel it bubbling away
    In the depths of me

    When will it resurface?
    It’s there, though I may seem not to care
    I’m scared of those feelings, they’re curses

    Like ever-expanding black hallways in the Navidson house,
    A gutteral growl, a foreboding sound
    Echoes from the chambers of my soul

    I could get lost in there
    No way back, tether snapped
    I fear it will be my inevitable demise

  • Dopamine

    There is no-one in the world I would like to be near right now, except for you
    I’m not sure how you feel about this, a meeting of just us two
    I want to say more, but I’ll keep this clean
    It’s all about the dopamine

    I’d like a hit in many senses of the word
    Would you do this for me, would my request be heard?
    I know what you could bring to the table
    The thought of it makes me unstable

    Back to the beginning, back to the primitive
    No thoughts, just sensations to play with
    And dopamine, one hit, then another
    I’d definitely need some time to recover

    Then back to the real world
    My head in a swirl
    Reality must always be found again
    But we could play for a moment at least, my dopamine friend

  • Why?

    Beauty from within
    Enhanced by that which is little bigger than a pin
    My pupils dilated when I saw you
    So I could take every inch of your soul in

    What a beautiful vessel for such beautiful essence
    You were ethereal, so much so that I could not make sense
    Of it – why should someone so luminous and kind feel so hollow?
    The question swallowed me whole, it was intense

    Shit.

  • A Shot in the Dark

    A shot in the dark
    Though I know that it’s wrong
    A shot in the dark
    Will come before long

    A shot in the dark
    Though I know it’s insane
    A shot in the dark
    Has tarnished my name

    A shot in the dark
    Will I ever relent?
    A shot in the dark
    It’s time to repent

    A shot in the dark
    Not the last word I spoke
    A shot in the dark
    Once more I’m a joke.

  • Self-loathing

    Sitting there one night
    I decided to eat everything in sight
    I hated myself long before this
    So I decided to fill myself literally with shit

    It felt good to fuck myself up
    And so it became a habit that stuck
    A slow painful death was what I deserved
    According to the self-talk that I constantly heard

    I wondered if I might bring on a heart attack
    And that this would be a blessing in fact
    No desire to live, hope draining as if in a sieve
    I had nothing left to give

    So consume I did, to excess, over and over
    I became adept at being a self-loather
    Hurting myself was better than being hurt by another
    As that hurt was too painful from which to recover

  • Untethered

    You laughed
    I wanted to hold this image in my mind forever
    Will it be repressed when you’re gone?
    When I am untethered?

    To be untethered in this world is a terrifying thought
    Losing one parent meant losing my mind, this happened before, do you remember?
    To lose you as well, my sanity might well dwindle
    Turn from small fire to barely smouldering embers

    So when my mind’s gone to join you in the aether
    What will become of me?
    I’ll die when you die, and perhaps heavily sigh
    For a part of me will be lost at sea

  • I Guess I Could Do Worse

    Hey
    How’s it going?

    Sorry to be annoying
    Just trying to fill a void

    It runs deep within me
    Don’t be annoyed

    If you felt this way
    I’d help you too
    But you don’t, it’s me
    I’m a big piece of poo

  • Confronting Feelings

    I eat to stop my feelings

    I eat to make them soar

    I eat too much and drink too much

    And end up on the floor

    I used to be so different 

    I used to have control

    I’m working on this, but substances

    Have truly taken their toll

    So see me in the future 

    What does the future hold?

    I can beat it if I can feel it

    Or so that’s what I’m told

  • Ripped At The Seams

    He put a hole in my heart
    I put a hole in my hand
    Life put a hole in my head
    For which I never planned


    It struck me down in my youth
    Can fix a hole in a wall
    Or a hole in a tooth
    But sanity falls like a neck through a noose


    So catch it you say
    It can’t be that hard
    Just put out your hands
    Try to catch the shards


    I’ve tried that and tried
    It’s harder than it seems
    It appears that you lied
    My mind’s ripped at the seams

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