Peristalsis;
Smooth muscle contracting downward
But wait a minute –
You know I fixate, regurgitate
I’m a baby bird
Oh, but it’s the mother who feeds their young this way
Hmm
I will produce no-one to provide for
My DNA will remain with me
Closed within this cage of flesh and consciousness
I can feel music
Predict rhythm
Visceral movement
Widen the schism
Poetic convulsions
Ripple through space and time
In this simple kitchen
Where I reside
And my time I bide
There is indeed history in the rooms of this house
Tag: love
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Obsolete
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I Want You to Stay
What if you die
And I don’t know
Would I know by the stars in the sky
Or would I just start to feel lowWhat if I don’t see you again
Before that moment hits
This thought plagues me, my friend
Your soul, I already missI love you
I really love you
Will my love live on
When I’m gone?Wasn’t this intense
When we used to date
Now we’re just friends
Or acquaintances sealed by fateWhat is this madness?
I hear you ask
And I’m filled with sadness
In which I baskWhat will become of our friendship?
Will it be left in ruins?
Still I open my heart and shit
Just to try and get through itToo honest for my own good
But what about yours?
Keep quiet, i know that I should
Keep those feelings behind closed doorsMy heart quickens
At the thought of losing you
My blood thickens
What can I do?I really hope we can be friends
Can’t you see?
Before the bitter end
Of you or meJesus Christ, Tripoli
Boo, Limousine
Usually so beautiful
But in that context so obsceneI need to shut the fuck up
So as not to alienate you
But this is something
I find really hard to doThe floodgates are open
Please don’t get washed away
I love you so much
I want you to stay -
Fallen Leaves
The fallen leaves and tears
That have come at this time of year
Have been beautiful, though some painful
They speak of change, I hold them nearI told you that I’d go away
Not tomorrow or next week, but today
Not forever, only for a while and in physical form
But it seems now that it is you who couldn’t stayI hung on every word you said
Sent you something on which to rest your head
When you can’t sleep (often) and all seems bleak
I worry when I don’t hear from you that you’re deadYou want to make sure I can survive
Without you, and that in fact I thrive
Sadness hangs in a haze during this settling phase
And yet I continue to be aliveWhen will I see you again?
Can I still call you my friend?
I care about you, I love you still
And I know that this will never end. -
All That You Are
You’re insightful
You look at me and see me for all that I amYou are delightful
It’s rare to find a person like youI wish that I could kiss away your scars
Make them fade away and take back your painI want to bathe with you under the light of a thousand stars
And hope that someday you might feel the sameI love you, and all that you are.
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Apathy
I always want to talk to you
After certain acts
But really what I ought to do
Is face the factsApathy towards me
Is plain and clear
Couldn’t you just hate me or like me, or ANYTHING but
Just apathy? It’s what I fear -
Miłość Jest Trudna
Sap through the leaves of these ever-lasting trees
My love for you floats on the soft cool breeze
It floats far, it floats near, it dances through the trees
And brings me down upon my bruised kneesI’m down here for you, my heart cut in two
One piece for me, and another for you
Mine infused red, but yours growing blue
It’s oxygen-starved, with its pallid pale hueHow did I get here, and what do I fear?
My knees hurt, my posture slumps and my eyes fill with tears
I know you’ll never love me back, it’s futile being here
These are the truths that taunt me, their veracity grows clearBut still I kneel down, and here I will stay
My heart yearns and my stomach churns for yet another day
She’s foolish and lives in a fantasy land, I hear everyone say
But perhaps one day you’ll look at me and my devotion will hold swayAre you okay tonight, or are you filled with fright?
Was it me? Now I see, that I’ve added to your plight
I told you I could be intense, it seems that forewarning was right
So I’ll hold myself back from flooding you with love, I’ll do this with all of my might -
Limerence
You’re so apathetic
Towards me
I feel pathetic
Eventually you’ll message
And be so apologeticPlease don’t apologise I’ll say
Just refrain
And I’ll smile
And you’ll nod
And I won’t tell you
That I’ve been going slowly insane -
Astrophysicist Implosion Blues
Empty black hole
Gaping hole for a soul
Sucks you in, crushes you down
Don’t make a noise, don’t make a sound
Empty black holeEmpty black hole
Gaping hole for a soul
Can’t breathe, can’t scream
Can’t live, can’t dream
Empty black holeEmpty black hole
Gaping hole for a soul
Can’t think, all is bleak
I must die, I’m a freak
Empty black hole -
Down the White Road
Let’s go down the white road you said
And down we went together
We walked and walked in the beautiful snow
Until one day you left me aloneIt had never felt as cold as that day
Everything turned hostile and grey
I’m still there you know, shivering and alone
And you live your life separately, to me unknown
