Souls entwined by similar minds

“Trees Forest” by Sebastian Unrau/ CC0 1.0

Tag: loss

  • Walking Away

    Lonely willow, swaying in the wind
    Through your branches the breeze does sing
    Is this truly all I can bring
    To a world so broken with such suffering?

    I saw them locked up, with no place to go
    Through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows
    Some detached completely from the world in which they live
    Some say they are mad, but they have so much to give

    Just a little help needed to come back from hell
    I thought I could help them, try and break the spell
    But by doing so grew weaker, ever nearing the abyss
    Really irony, what the fuck is this?

    So now I sell petrol and chocolate bars too
    Not very fulfilling, but I guess it’ll do
    If it means I can thrive and not end up there too
    I’ll hold my head high and ask “how are you?”

  • Over-familiarity

    Over-familiarity;
    A term I used clinically
    But lately I am developing some clarity
    That it relates to… me

    And how I relate to others

    I am driven somehow
    To reach out
    and out
    and out
    To people who I don’t deeply know now

    Why is this?

    We knew each other in the past
    And I wished that our knowing would last
    Extend to the present
    And the future
    Perhaps eternity
    So I continue this farce

    But at what cost?

    I keep you tethered
    Though our relationship is weathered
    As is my dignity
    And your patience
    And the illusion of a friendship
    That would naturally be severed

    If I let it die a natural death.

  • Shark

    I dreamt that you tamed sharks – why couldn’t you tame the shark within?

    So beautiful in your enclosure
    Until the moments of your exposure
    Self defence made you so tense, from what?
    When the truth surfaced you attacked it with force

    Malignant in your ways, vitriol lasted for days

    Every compliment I uttered was like a harpoon to your heart
    You didn’t believe in us, from the start
    Love gave way to suspicion and dismay
    Relating to one another began to fray

    So when I think of your glistening teeth
    So sharp in your dangerous jaws
    I think thank fuck and feel relief
    That I am no longer yours

  • Wish

    Throw a coin down the well
    Make a wish but don’t tell
    If you tell then it won’t come true
    And if you don’t, it won’t too

    I wished for you.

  • Everyone Leaves (Torn Apart)

    When, if ever, will you return?
    Without you my soul burns
    I don’t like the heat

    Everyone leaves eventually
    Some sooner than others
    To strive for eternal love equals defeat

    I have unhealthy attachments
    Some too intense, others lacking
    Is there a middle in which to meet?

    Who am I referring to?
    Myself? Another? An ex? My father?
    Isolation so profound, I can’t speak

  • Self-loathing

    Sitting there one night
    I decided to eat everything in sight
    I hated myself long before this
    So I decided to fill myself literally with shit

    It felt good to fuck myself up
    And so it became a habit that stuck
    A slow painful death was what I deserved
    According to the self-talk that I constantly heard

    I wondered if I might bring on a heart attack
    And that this would be a blessing in fact
    No desire to live, hope draining as if in a sieve
    I had nothing left to give

    So consume I did, to excess, over and over
    I became adept at being a self-loather
    Hurting myself was better than being hurt by another
    As that hurt was too painful from which to recover

  • Untethered

    You laughed
    I wanted to hold this image in my mind forever
    Will it be repressed when you’re gone?
    When I am untethered?

    To be untethered in this world is a terrifying thought
    Losing one parent meant losing my mind, this happened before, do you remember?
    To lose you as well, my sanity might well dwindle
    Turn from small fire to barely smouldering embers

    So when my mind’s gone to join you in the aether
    What will become of me?
    I’ll die when you die, and perhaps heavily sigh
    For a part of me will be lost at sea

  • When You Are Gone

    What will become of me
    When you are gone?
    Will it be different to the last time?

    How long do we have left?
    Are our days numbered?
    I wonder about this all the time

    No-one can say
    You tell me “live for each day”
    Your wisdom divine

    So when you do go
    I’ll try not to follow
    My memory of you enshrined

  • Estranged

    How do two people who connect so well
    Become so estranged and break the spell
    Back and forth, to and fro
    “I love you, wait, I don’t know”
    Body fuck then mind fuck, that’s how it would go

    They needed each other in a time that was bleak
    But now he says nothing, refuses to speak
    Though she tries and tries, to no avail
    I guess she’ll retreat back into her shell

    Lucky him.

  • Where Have You Gone?

    Where have you gone?
    Your light shone
    So bright
    Is it no longer on?


    I know you’ve been feeling strange of late
    In the pit of your stomach, an ache
    Crawling under you skin at night
    Do you really just want a break?


    From us, just tell me
    I’ll understand
    Just help me
    To know what you’ve planned


    As the last time we spoke
    You said you’d be fine
    “Unless I die”
    What’s going on in your mind?


    Your stomach would ache
    And I’d hold you near
    You’d been using a lot
    That was quite clear


    Then you never came back
    Just a void, full of black
    Where you used to be
    Just you and me


    Where have you gone?
    Are you okay?
    Will I see you again?
    I love you, my friend



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