Lonely willow, swaying in the wind Through your branches the breeze does sing Is this truly all I can bring To a world so broken with such suffering?
I saw them locked up, with no place to go Through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows Some detached completely from the world in which they live Some say they are mad, but they have so much to give
Just a little help needed to come back from hell I thought I could help them, try and break the spell But by doing so grew weaker, ever nearing the abyss Really irony, what the fuck is this?
So now I sell petrol and chocolate bars too Not very fulfilling, but I guess it’ll do If it means I can thrive and not end up there too I’ll hold my head high and ask “how are you?”
There is a place that only I know In the depths of my mind, aglow I can go there when frightened And emerge, enlightened From the peace that I find when I go
So what is it like, this haven, you ask It’s a forest of trees under whose shade I bask With a stream running through it And and a row of shiny toilets upon which you can sit If the need arises
It is sunny but shaded Somewhat mystically aged Flowers hugging the trees No-one else around, just me There is a wisdom beyond which you can imagine
I have a pillow and a blanket But lie upon the grass, anchored The grass is cool to the touch The blanket just warm enough The stream babbles and birds sing in the sky
So when frantic I feel I abandon the real And retreat inward Hearing the word “Beautiful” repeat.
Fear can turn to anger I’ve seen this many times I know you only long to be free For your former life, you pine
I’m so sorry that I did this to you I know it caused you pain Emotionally and physically And the trauma will remain
It hurt me too, to go against your will The first time it shocked me, it haunts me still “I promise you it’s for the best”, in time we might see You are steadfast like a tree
So after the storm, does the experience feel the same? When the calm has returned and you can smile again? I hope you can see it through a different lens As you begin to heal and mend
Capacity was lost when you struggled the most I know it’s unfair, it was hell But remember this, precious neighbour You’ll have a story full of hope and better days, to tell
Mind ensnared by you all this time Heart I shared with you, you crushed, though it’s mine Fuck off over there in the corner you swine Everything you said to me a lie, still I shine
I shine because I’m rid of you I shine because you’re gone I shine because I’ve stamped you out Though it made me feel so wrong
I shine because we never speak I shine because that’s it! I shine because we’ll never meet Stay gone, you piece of shit
One night by chance, a meeting in the dark External beauty caught my eye, glimmering soul caught my heart We walked by the overpass, jumped and then laughed “Where do I live again?” Hardly felt time pass
I started to get nervous and you soothed my anxious soul Your kindness always shone so bright, whilst life took its toll I love the way you held me, would give anything to hear your tone So gentle in your subtle ways, the way you made me moan
I don’t know what we talked about then Or in the days to come Our bodies communicated for us some of the time And fuck me, that was fun
The nurse asked if I was being abused My neck so beautifully bruised From the touch of your lips on my neck and my clit Her concern had me highly amused
Souls entwined by similar minds Dance through the depth of your knowing eyes When I think of your suffering, I feel pain too It starts small, but ascends to the sky
It stings and burns, it makes me yearn For the softness of your skin, you’re truly my kin Not everyone knows, the heaviness of the woes That we weather my love I carry your heart
I knew something was wrong as the silence grew long And I thought of your dark despair But you found me again and I found you, my friend You brought new life, like first Autumn’s air
So when sometimes we speak, my solace peaks Cos I know you’ve been going through hell But if you’re able to write, then maybe some of your plight Has dropped off, like coins down a well
I can never fully know you, you can never know me Can never fully understand the inner turmoil of the other But you helped me just by being you If you could let me in I’d strive all hours of the day too To help you to uncover
Your inner world is rich, I want to bathe in it Have so much love for you, not only when we were lovers When I hear you call, my heart stands proud and tall You’ve really helped me to recover
So when all’s said and done, we had such fun Then life pulled us in separate ways But I feel you, I see you, you’re in my dreams Love you always, til the end of our days
Fellow human, I love you so Not in a weird way but you should know Because it’s hard to connect in this life I find comfort in knowing you know my darker side And you value my struggles and strife
One day I’ll astral project all the way to Birkenhead Our souls will embrace in the dead of night I’ll hold yours, you’ll hold mine and if we fuck then that’s fine But we don’t have to, it’s enough to hold you in my sight
