What will become of me
When you are gone?
Will it be different to the last time?
How long do we have left?
Are our days numbered?
I wonder about this all the time
No-one can say
You tell me “live for each day”
Your wisdom divine
So when you do go
I’ll try not to follow
My memory of you enshrined
Green light spinning round and round
Rain sounds playing, what a sound, what a sound
In my head the knife is calling
Will I make it to the morning?
We’ll have to see, as you see all logic is damned.
Hey
How’s it going?
Sorry to be annoying
Just trying to fill a void
It runs deep within me
Don’t be annoyed
If you felt this way
I’d help you too
But you don’t, it’s me
I’m a big piece of poo
If moods are like the weather
And my favourite weather is rain
I hope it rains forever
To keep away the pain
The pain of living life
Beats me down, hottest sun
It’s truly unforgiving
Please hand me a gun
So fragile and thin
It’s buried within
I’ll try to explain it
But where to begin
I first lost my mind
When I was only a child
It scared me, prepared me
For a life of denial
Denial of what?
Stomach tied up in knots
As I live full of fear
Of eventual brain rot
See I was never quite there
And maybe life is unfair
Still I’ll try, though I cry
At my mind I still tear
Where have you gone?
Your light shone
So bright
Is it no longer on?
I know you’ve been feeling strange of late
In the pit of your stomach, an ache
Crawling under you skin at night
Do you really just want a break?
From us, just tell me
I’ll understand
Just help me
To know what you’ve planned
As the last time we spoke
You said you’d be fine
“Unless I die”
What’s going on in your mind?
Your stomach would ache
And I’d hold you near
You’d been using a lot
That was quite clear
Then you never came back
Just a void, full of black
Where you used to be
Just you and me
Where have you gone?
Are you okay?
Will I see you again?
I love you, my friend
He put a hole in my heart
I put a hole in my hand
Life put a hole in my head
For which I never planned
It struck me down in my youth
Can fix a hole in a wall
Or a hole in a tooth
But sanity falls like a neck through a noose
So catch it you say
It can’t be that hard
Just put out your hands
Try to catch the shards
I’ve tried that and tried
It’s harder than it seems
It appears that you lied
My mind’s ripped at the seams
Psychotic brain
In my dreams again
Took the pills, near-death thrills
What does this mean again?
Neurotic brain
When awake always the same
Anxious mind, peace to find
What’s this fucked up game?
Stepping from the bright to dark
From glaring sun to rain
I felt a brain and body spark
Alleviate the pain
Dreaming of mind sinking
In another realm
It shocked me into thinking
And led to overwhelm
It spoke my name softly
But persistently too
I listened hard, I listened fast
And so it grew and grew
But somewhere between sleep and wake
My senses came to
I let go of that stabbing ache
And sanity shone through.
