Trees Forest” by Sebastian Unrau/ CC0 1.0

Tag: Depression

  • EMDR

    An empty space filled with pillars
    Dark and tall, ashen grey
    I’ve been there once before, I’ve visited this place
    I was horrified by what I saw, barren land of shame, guilt and disgrace

    There lived a girl there, small and cowering
    Covering her face and head with hands, stone pillars towering
    She hid behind one, and shook with fear
    As the malevolent character grew ever near

    Who is the malevolent one, smiling sinisterly?
    Searching for the small girl, and carrying a machete
    It turns out they are me, both different parts
    Part of my mind wants to kill the other, and to stab me in the heart.

    I discovered them some time ago, are they still there?
    I think they are, but I’m not consciously aware
    If I delve back into the depths of my mind
    I’m sure they’ll be there, quite easy to find

    Who is lurking in the corners of your mind?

  • Nothingness

    Emptiness
    Hollow chest
    Only excess
    To fill the nothingness

  • Why?

    Beauty from within
    Enhanced by that which is little bigger than a pin
    My pupils dilated when I saw you
    So I could take every inch of your soul in

    What a beautiful vessel for such beautiful essence
    You were ethereal, so much so that I could not make sense
    Of it – why should someone so luminous and kind feel so hollow?
    The question swallowed me whole, it was intense

    Shit.

  • A Shot in the Dark

    A shot in the dark
    Though I know that it’s wrong
    A shot in the dark
    Will come before long

    A shot in the dark
    Though I know it’s insane
    A shot in the dark
    Has tarnished my name

    A shot in the dark
    Will I ever relent?
    A shot in the dark
    It’s time to repent

    A shot in the dark
    Not the last word I spoke
    A shot in the dark
    Once more I’m a joke.

  • Everyone Leaves (Torn Apart)

    When, if ever, will you return?
    Without you my soul burns
    I don’t like the heat

    Everyone leaves eventually
    Some sooner than others
    To strive for eternal love equals defeat

    I have unhealthy attachments
    Some too intense, others lacking
    Is there a middle in which to meet?

    Who am I referring to?
    Myself? Another? An ex? My father?
    Isolation so profound, I can’t speak

  • Self-loathing

    Sitting there one night
    I decided to eat everything in sight
    I hated myself long before this
    So I decided to fill myself literally with shit

    It felt good to fuck myself up
    And so it became a habit that stuck
    A slow painful death was what I deserved
    According to the self-talk that I constantly heard

    I wondered if I might bring on a heart attack
    And that this would be a blessing in fact
    No desire to live, hope draining as if in a sieve
    I had nothing left to give

    So consume I did, to excess, over and over
    I became adept at being a self-loather
    Hurting myself was better than being hurt by another
    As that hurt was too painful from which to recover

  • When You Are Gone

    What will become of me
    When you are gone?
    Will it be different to the last time?

    How long do we have left?
    Are our days numbered?
    I wonder about this all the time

    No-one can say
    You tell me “live for each day”
    Your wisdom divine

    So when you do go
    I’ll try not to follow
    My memory of you enshrined

  • All Logic Is Damned

    Green light spinning round and round
    Rain sounds playing, what a sound, what a sound
    In my head the knife is calling
    Will I make it to the morning?
    We’ll have to see, as you see all logic is damned.

  • I Guess I Could Do Worse

    Hey
    How’s it going?

    Sorry to be annoying
    Just trying to fill a void

    It runs deep within me
    Don’t be annoyed

    If you felt this way
    I’d help you too
    But you don’t, it’s me
    I’m a big piece of poo

  • Unforgiving

    If moods are like the weather
    And my favourite weather is rain
    I hope it rains forever
    To keep away the pain

    The pain of living life
    Beats me down, hottest sun
    It’s truly unforgiving
    Please hand me a gun

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