Souls entwined by similar minds

“Trees Forest” by Sebastian Unrau/ CC0 1.0

Author: Claire

  • Sleepless

    Sleep eludes me
    When will it come?
    I feel relief, I feel ashamed
    As I know what I’ve done.

  • Mind

    Mind;
    If you are me and I am you
    Shouldn’t we work together, us two?
    In a prison cell devoid of autonomy
    Is how you make me feel, can’t you see?

    You made me crazy, you made me numb
    I couldn’t speak, you made me dumb
    You nearly killed me, hurt me through and through
    And you made me damage my family too

    Can we ever learn to be friends?
    Before we come to our end?
    Consequences must be considered
    Lest we die and wither.

  • EMDR

    An empty space filled with pillars
    Dark and tall, ashen grey
    I’ve been there once before, I’ve visited this place
    I was horrified by what I saw, barren land of shame, guilt and disgrace

    There lived a girl there, small and cowering
    Covering her face and head with hands, stone pillars towering
    She hid behind one, and shook with fear
    As the malevolent character grew ever near

    Who is the malevolent one, smiling sinisterly?
    Searching for the small girl, and carrying a machete
    It turns out they are me, both different parts
    Part of my mind wants to kill the other, and to stab me in the heart.

    I discovered them some time ago, are they still there?
    I think they are, but I’m not consciously aware
    If I delve back into the depths of my mind
    I’m sure they’ll be there, quite easy to find

    Who is lurking in the corners of your mind?

  • Nothingness

    Emptiness
    Hollow chest
    Only excess
    To fill the nothingness

  • Always

    I feel like my throat is cut
    As fresh as 9 years ago
    Why is this?
    What’s wrong with me?

    Attachment issues
    Feeling close to those so far away
    And alienated from those who reside close
    It’s fucked up to say the least

    We may have grown apart
    Over the years
    But I really love you, you know
    As odd as this may seem

    How could I not?
    I try incessantly to connect
    It’s really not fair on either
    So I’ll say goodbye

    But I am always here if you need me.

    Always.

  • Darkness Within

    There’s a darkness within me
    Even when I’m okay, I feel it bubbling away
    In the depths of me

    When will it resurface?
    It’s there, though I may seem not to care
    I’m scared of those feelings, they’re curses

    Like ever-expanding black hallways in the Navidson house,
    A gutteral growl, a foreboding sound
    Echoes from the chambers of my soul

    I could get lost in there
    No way back, tether snapped
    I fear it will be my inevitable demise

  • Toxic

    I may not understand quantum mechanics
    But I do know this
    I hate you
    Whether you observe me or not
    I still hate you

    Unobserved, I can both love you and hate you simultaneously
    But lay your eyes on me and I must choose one
    And it will always be hate

    Schrödinger’s love died in the box I’m afraid
    The box you sealed and left it in there to die with nothing but toxic air to breathe
    What a relief when it was gone

    Go fuck yourself in the corner of my mind that I have to push you into to survive

  • I Miss You

    I miss you

    Is it strange that I miss you, you who knew me only briefly several years ago?

    Perhaps it is, but it’s true and my feelings are the only things I know to be real in this life

    Everyone disappears, everything changes, the only constant is that

    I miss you

  • Dopamine

    There is no-one in the world I would like to be near right now, except for you
    I’m not sure how you feel about this, a meeting of just us two
    I want to say more, but I’ll keep this clean
    It’s all about the dopamine

    I’d like a hit in many senses of the word
    Would you do this for me, would my request be heard?
    I know what you could bring to the table
    The thought of it makes me unstable

    Back to the beginning, back to the primitive
    No thoughts, just sensations to play with
    And dopamine, one hit, then another
    I’d definitely need some time to recover

    Then back to the real world
    My head in a swirl
    Reality must always be found again
    But we could play for a moment at least, my dopamine friend

  • Walking Away

    Lonely willow, swaying in the wind
    Through your branches the breeze does sing
    Is this truly all I can bring
    To a world so broken with such suffering?

    I saw them locked up, with no place to go
    Through the highest of highs and the lowest of lows
    Some detached completely from the world in which they live
    Some say they are mad, but they have so much to give

    Just a little help needed to come back from hell
    I thought I could help them, try and break the spell
    But by doing so grew weaker, ever nearing the abyss
    Really irony, what the fuck is this?

    So now I sell petrol and chocolate bars too
    Not very fulfilling, but I guess it’ll do
    If it means I can thrive and not end up there too
    I’ll hold my head high and ask “how are you?”

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